clips from the Ayanami's eye

i am i.
i've become me through the instumentality
of the links between me and others.

i've been formed by interaction with others.

the interaction with people and the flow
of time change the shape of mind.

those are bonds?

yes. those have formed me so far, the thing called Ayanami Rei.
and, those will form me from now on.

those are bonds?

but, there's someone else who is the true you.

you don't know her.

because you don't want to see that,
you are trying to run away.

because of fear.

because she might not have a human shape.
because the present me might disappear.

fear.

one is afraid that the self will disappear.
fear?
that doesn't make sense.
the self's world will disappear.

arent you afraid?

heaven knows (this angel has flown)

There are times when I’m lying in my bed

Hug my pillow and cry from this tip again

And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day

Almost rubbed down, swelling, as I keep on

Dipping my face in these cold hands of mine

Heaven knows how bitter I am

Cause this angel has flown away from me

Leaving me in drunken misery

I should have clipped her wings and made her mine

For all eternity

Now this angel has flown away from me

Thought I had the strength to set her free

Did what I did because I love her so

Will she ever find her way back home to me...

I’m so tired, I feel like catching forty winks

Being up all night in this elbow room

That puts me in a trance

Where hopes and dreams come true

Now my lips are burning and my eyes are hurting

From this fuse I mixed till I light another

Cigarette just to pass my time, oh

Heaven knows how bitter I am

para sa lahat 'to!

pedi ba akong humingi ng paumanhin?

paumanhin para sa lahat ng mga taong kumulo ang dugo dahil hindi nila masumpungan ang blog ko.

medyo...inayos ko lang ang sarili ko kaya lahat naapaktuhan na...inayos ko na rin ang blog ko.

pero... hindi ko naman talaga inayos na literal..dahil sa totoo lang e hindi ko naman ginagalaw..ngayon ko nga lang ito na-asikaso.

kaya nananawagan ako sa lahat ng nagbigay ng tulong at para na rin sa mga taong nasa paligid ko, kahit parati nila kong sinesermunan, maraming salamat sa inyong lahat.

pahabol lang...

ito na yung lahat ng magagawa ko para sa iba...kung may hihiling pa ng mas malaki, baka hindi ako kilala..pedi namang maghanap ng iba..:p